Aku tak tau la kenapa emosi tak stabil minggu nih. Anything yang ada kaitan dengan rumah buat aku emo.

Homesick.

Yeah... i guess so... Bila orang kata diorang balik rumah, mulalah "nak balik jugakkk!!!" Tapi sayangnya tak boleh... masa terlalu limited. Lagi seminggu nak final. Honestly speaking, aku tak start study untuk final. Asyik study untuk test je. Sigh. Tak tau lah weyh... cuak gila nak final nih. Tapi tak de mood. Tak de semangat langsung. I just want to do nothing.

And aku sangat mudah pissed off bila chat ngan family members. All they do is bragging what they did at home. Whatever you guys do... buat aje la... but don't ever mention it to me anymore. Tak payah buat aku jeles. Sebab terang-terangan aku dah jeles. I'm trying to overcome this homesick and all you guys did, making me feel more homesick.

"Oh kitorang tengah makan cheesecake oreo."

SO WHATTTTTTT? Unless you are bringing some to me... don't mention it!

Sampai aku rasa malas nak chat ngan anyone of them. Tak kiralah mama, ayah, Sirhan or Syibli! Because sama je...

Oh kitorang makan nih... oh kitorang gi sini... oh kitorang gi sana...

Seriously... cukup-cukup lah tuh... It's always about what you guys do pun...

It doesn't make me feel good... It doesn't make me feel calm at all... Semua tu buat aku rasa nak nangis... or in other word... dah pun nangis.

No matter how i missed home... I just couldn't talk to them right now... Since it won't do me any good anyway... Just buat rasa lebih homesick. Kalau boleh terbang, dah terbang balik rumah. Kalau ada pintu suka hati lagi bahagia... penat pun tidak.

Tak tau kenapa perasaan homesick nih macam melampau pulak. Agak melampau la sebenarnya. Entah lah weyh. Maybe PMS pun ye gak kot. Yang paling penting... tension untuk final dah start since last 2 weeks aku rasa... tu yang terasa extra pressure...

Anyhow... 1 month to go until final habis. All the best for myself. Just let me keep myself happy until then... No more crying please... entah kenapa my tear duct macam sangat kaya dengan air mata lately nih...

Bajet macam tinggal jauh sangat je... Ni baru kat Malaysia... ermm more specific PERAK. Well i'm blaming UTP sebab UTP memang serious bosan, terpencil dan bosan arh!

Memandangkan apa yang tersirat kat hati nih dah pun berjaya dikeluarkan... Jom kite study tuk test Reservoir Geoscience yang telah di post-pone ke hari Selasa nih.

Yang selalu fikir nak balik rumah,
jmunawwarah

Petang-petang yang bosan tadi, aku terfikir.

Kalau kita nak keluar dari UTP tapi tak de transport, kita pergi sewa kereta. Selalunya dekat Bugsy. 1 jam RM5. Kancil auto. Minimum time sewa, 3 jam. So beronggeng la kitorang pergi beli stock makanan, pergi salon ke... pergi makan malam dan sebagainya.

Kan best... kalau ada kedai sewa boyfriend.

Apa?

Ye la... tak semua orang ada boyfriend kan. (well... that includes me) So bila terasa nak ada boyfriend, kita pergi sewa kat kedai tu untuk a few hours. Gi lepak2 tengok wayang. Pergi makan (mesti)... dan buat apa yang couple slalu buat lah (yang elok je anyway).

No string attached. So tak de la heart broken ke apa. Yang paling best kalau kita boleh pilih personality and character dia. Sort of the perfect boyfriend you are looking for. Nak yang handsome? Boleh2x. Nak yang ada kereta. Perfect gentleman... things like that...

Seems desperate? In a way yeah... but in another way not really. I mean, some of us are not prepare to commit to a relationship. Some find it difficult to find the guy and get the feeling mutual. (that's me). Some feel that they want a guy companionship that is not just friend material. Some of us nak boyfriend for certain time je. Like when you are feeling so bored, during holidays... So in a way... by having this Boyfriend/Girlfriend shop makes us feel a bit better though we kinda feel like desperate or something. Haha

Kenapa tak keluar dengan kawan2? Sometimes you just felt that you need something else besides your friend. You always have your friends indeed. But at times...you want to be with other people companionship (in other word boyfriend/girlfriend).

& the fact that not all your friends are single like you... means when you want them, they are not available. So you tak nak lah kacau diorang kan. Oh... this boyfriend shop doesn't mean that i nak sewa your boyfriend. Ermmm totally not. Hahaha. I kinda think that it would be good if we don't really know them.

Katalah... you nak pergi prom. But you tak de boyfriend and tak de orang ajak you. (ermm sedihlah pulak tuk situation nih) So what would you do? Ajak your guy friends lah. Or maybe you nak buat something daring... so let's go to Boyfriend / Girlfriend shop and shop for a partner. Hahaha.

In a way the idea sound interesting to me. But if this shop really exist, would i go there and sewa a boyfriend? Ermmmm... Hard to say but probably no. Or maybe if i'm daring or boring enough then yes. Because people talks and you malas nak dengar this kind of talks. & it doesn't sound morally good anyway.

One situation, Eira pergi dating with this rent boyfriend and say... Niksu terjumpa diorang.

Niksu: Heyyyy Eiraaa! (hugs) Oh who's this?

Eira: Hi nik! (hugs) Oh.. this guy, (insert name) is my rent boyfriend for today. hihi. He's good looking rite? (erk) I sewa dia for RM 7 an hour.

Niksu: ????

Basically macam tak bley blah lah. If i'm in Nik's situation (in above example), I mesti fikir... my friend nih desperate ke ape. Maybe I should introduce her some real guy. Hahahahahaha & seriously macam kurang bermoral sikit. You sewa orang... in other words macam you hire prostitute. Obviously that sounds no good at all ne?

Bila you bosan... idea yang ntah pape macam ni pun boleh muncul. But seriously there are times that i feel that i should hire someone to be my boyfriend. Just for the fun of it. This idea usually occurs when i feel so bored and i want to go out of UTP and I need someone who is willing to bring me out. Nak ajak my guy friends... at times i rasa a bit malu lah. Ye la... macam kita mempergunakan diorang for the sake that they have car in UTP. Nak ajak the girls ~ yang ada kereta mostly got boyfriend. So rather than keluar dengan girlfriends... the idea of going out with your boyfriend is more tempting.

Well, honestly i'm totally bored now. I've been talking to my head the whole day. Since room-mate went for a field trip for her event in Pahang... and i malas nak keluar dari bilik, so today is very unsocial day for me.

I miss home.

p/s: final in a week more... i'm scared.


Kimi wo shinjirareta boku wo shinjiyou to omotta
Moshi warui hito da to shitemo, boku wa suki ni natta

pemilik idea gila,
jmunawwarah

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The last post was written when i was emotionally unstable. Sorry about that. I was tired, sleepy, hungry, frustrated & tension. I couldn't think wisely as i was having a panic attack. The moment i wrote that post, i haven't found the solution yet. But now, everything is back to normal. I already sent a letter endorsed by my lecturer to Registra to confirm that I am a student for Drilling Engineering subject. Thanks to mama & Fadz for helping me out when i couldn't think the right words to put on the letter. We'll see how it goes next week. Hopefully no more problems regarding the exam slip.

I'm in UTP when most of the student went back for Deepavali. I went back last week already since I'm afraid that I'm going to have lots of work to do. In a way... I did have a few things to be done here. My room-mate, Nisa went back yesterday afternoon. So I'm going to have 3 silent days.

I woke up quite early today eventhough it's holiday. I went to Wirecut Lab just to oversee the procedure of the lab & make sure my PR officer came and do the VIP souvenirs. EDX 24 is next Wednesday...! I'm quite nervous. Hopefully, everything that i planned for the VIP Tour would run smoothly.

I had potato salad for lunch. I want more! I want eggs & more potatoes. In my head, i have this imagination of having scramble egg & potato salad for breakfast tomorrow. But since I don't have both & i only have bread, butter, peanut butter & burger... let's just eat whatever we have lah. I'm thinking of cooking for lunch/dinner tomorrow. Well that depends on my mood & kerajinan... haha. I have chicken, meat, kangkung, carrot & of course rice. So what to cook tomorrow? Kangkung masak kicap & ayam goreng sounds nice & easy. Haha. Will see lah later if i'm rajin... (sendiri mau makan pun malas... hish3x)

I'm quite rajin today you know. I study a bit on Material Balance Equation (MBE) since i'm going to finish up my assignment on that topic. Just to brag with you guys la... i managed to finish up my assignment! Hoorey. I'm quite happy with myself since i can say that i did it 98% on my own! I did ask for some help from Anis & Fadz... like how to do it, or if i got stuck or when i'm not sure which formula to use... 

Today can be considered as productive day... Not bad. Haha...

Oh, i'm getting addicted to playing Cafe' World. I can't say that this game memang best gila... It's just that i'm getting competitve with myself. Nak naik level, greedy about the money & cafe points... that kind of thing. & susah nak stop. That's why i don't want to play games at Facebook... but dah ter-start. Oh-oh. Will find a way to stop this increasing addiction to that game.

Alrite people. That's all for today. Have a nice day. Happy Deepavali.

Sambil dengar lagu-lagu zaman sekolah rendah seperti Westlife & Boyzone, sibuk jugalah mencari lirik kat internet untuk bernyanyi bersama... Room mate tak de time nih la nak nyayi kuat-kuat kan (room-mate ada Raya dinner)... haha.

So i found out that Stephen Gately, one of Boyzone members died last Saturday... Since tak tau mamat nih yang mana satu, gi la cari kat google. Well, dia ni co-lead singer dengan Ronan Keating... Suara dia agak sedap la. Muke agak comel tapi dah tua kot. haha. Kesian dia, bila dah mati baru eira tau nama dia... erk. But at least i tau suara dia sedap kan. hoho

Stephen Gately - most left.

Anyway... tengah study Drilling nih. Test 2 on Wednesday. Sambil study tuh tiba-tiba mood rasa nak dengar lagu2 boyband yang agak lama ditinggalkan... Still sedap didengar... tapi sume love songs arh. haiyah.

Okaylah... drilling kata jangan merayau2 kat internet lagi... hahaha

Keluarga saya. =p


with Tok Mak.


Eira, Nabilah, Syazah & Ika. On our way to Batu Pahat.

Beraya di Pizza. =D


The cousins. Eira, Ika, Syibli, Lisa, Sirhan


All of us. Syibli took this photo...

I already wrote for this entry... but since the internet line is crazy the post cannot be published and returned to an empty entry. Cis. I was really semangat-ed writing it just now tau.

I have Drilling Test today. Because of that I don't have enough sleep last night. Well, my fault for not studying it during the break. But are you crazy? Studying during Raya break is not an option. Haha. For me (budak paling malas) la.

We have 20 objective questions. Sounds easy ne? Well not really but probably intermediate kot. Since the questions is more on application & some direct questions. The marking scheme, 5 marks for every right answer and 1 mark for wrong answer & no answer. Originally, Mr. Elias wants to make it 5 marks - right answer, -2 marks - wrong answer and -1 mark for no answer. Well since there is probability that students will get negative marks and it would be difficult for him to record it, he changed it to 5-1.

Drilling test jadi best bila...

1. Mr. Elias said during the class before Raya break, "Whoever wears their baju raya during the test, i will give 5% bonus marks."

& today, most of us wear baju kurung / baju melayu. & we are awarded with the 5% bonus marks. Comel sungguh. We also had a short photo session.

2. The venue for the test was in the class room. Since the room is small, we are being seated close to one another. You can see the answers from  the people next to you easily... Tak perlu ada leher zirafah.

3. There is one unrelated question to drilling

      20. Who is one of the lecturers from Petroleum & Geoscience Dept?
              a) Sonny Irawan
              b) Sonni Irawan
              c) Sonny bin Irawan
              d) Irwan Shah

Serious tak bley blah punya soalan. The answer is A.

4. The Best Dress Award. 3 candidates for guys and 2 candidates for girls. They are Ashraf, Haris & Haikal, Mirra & Farah. How do we vote, we scream for our choice. The candidates that received the loudest scream wins.

& the winners is Ashraf & Farah. They received RM25 duit raya each from Mr. Elias. Best kot!

Drilling is my favourite subject & i intend to take Drilling as my major. Also one of the classes that i rarely felt sleepy. haha.

Onshore Drilling rig.

lots of love (for u, drilling & chocolate chips cookies),
jmunawwarah