Aku tak tau la kenapa emosi tak stabil minggu nih. Anything yang ada kaitan dengan rumah buat aku emo.

Homesick.

Yeah... i guess so... Bila orang kata diorang balik rumah, mulalah "nak balik jugakkk!!!" Tapi sayangnya tak boleh... masa terlalu limited. Lagi seminggu nak final. Honestly speaking, aku tak start study untuk final. Asyik study untuk test je. Sigh. Tak tau lah weyh... cuak gila nak final nih. Tapi tak de mood. Tak de semangat langsung. I just want to do nothing.

And aku sangat mudah pissed off bila chat ngan family members. All they do is bragging what they did at home. Whatever you guys do... buat aje la... but don't ever mention it to me anymore. Tak payah buat aku jeles. Sebab terang-terangan aku dah jeles. I'm trying to overcome this homesick and all you guys did, making me feel more homesick.

"Oh kitorang tengah makan cheesecake oreo."

SO WHATTTTTTT? Unless you are bringing some to me... don't mention it!

Sampai aku rasa malas nak chat ngan anyone of them. Tak kiralah mama, ayah, Sirhan or Syibli! Because sama je...

Oh kitorang makan nih... oh kitorang gi sini... oh kitorang gi sana...

Seriously... cukup-cukup lah tuh... It's always about what you guys do pun...

It doesn't make me feel good... It doesn't make me feel calm at all... Semua tu buat aku rasa nak nangis... or in other word... dah pun nangis.

No matter how i missed home... I just couldn't talk to them right now... Since it won't do me any good anyway... Just buat rasa lebih homesick. Kalau boleh terbang, dah terbang balik rumah. Kalau ada pintu suka hati lagi bahagia... penat pun tidak.

Tak tau kenapa perasaan homesick nih macam melampau pulak. Agak melampau la sebenarnya. Entah lah weyh. Maybe PMS pun ye gak kot. Yang paling penting... tension untuk final dah start since last 2 weeks aku rasa... tu yang terasa extra pressure...

Anyhow... 1 month to go until final habis. All the best for myself. Just let me keep myself happy until then... No more crying please... entah kenapa my tear duct macam sangat kaya dengan air mata lately nih...

Bajet macam tinggal jauh sangat je... Ni baru kat Malaysia... ermm more specific PERAK. Well i'm blaming UTP sebab UTP memang serious bosan, terpencil dan bosan arh!

Memandangkan apa yang tersirat kat hati nih dah pun berjaya dikeluarkan... Jom kite study tuk test Reservoir Geoscience yang telah di post-pone ke hari Selasa nih.

Yang selalu fikir nak balik rumah,
jmunawwarah